I used to look out, now I look in.
I used to blow smoke, now I breathe in.
I used to walk weakly, now I run and rip the ribbons.
I used to cower among old men, now I hold my chest high in the wind.
Now I see the cowards for what they are – their own little nightmares.
I used to wonder what was my road, now I step down it with wisdom.
I am a little soft baby, I am a curious little girl, I am a piercing teen, I am a screaming young adult, I am a curious start of a woman, I am. I become. I am a poet. I am the same animal I have always been. I am anxious. I am calm. I am power. I am energy. I am everything.
I grieve just like you – I stumble in the same way you do. I will ride this ride, knowing you are riding it too.

I grieve.
It was only one hour ago
It was all so different then
There’s nothing yet has really sunk in
Looks like it always did
This flesh and bone
It’s just the way that you would tied in
Now there’s no-one home
I grieve for you
You leave me
‘so hard to move on
Still loving what’s gone
They say life carries on
Carries on and on and on and on
The news that truly shocks is the empty empty page
While the final rattle rocks it’s empty empty cage
And i can’t handle this
I grieve for you
You leave me
Let it out and move on
Missing what’s gone
They say life carries on
They say life carries on and on and on
Life carries on
In the people i meet
In everyone that’s out on the street
In all the dogs and cats
In the flies and rats
In the rot and the rust
In the ashes and the dust
Life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on
It’s just the car that we ride in
A home we reside in
The face that we hide in
The way we are tied in
And life carries on and on and on and on
Life carries on and on and on
Did I dream this belief?
Or did i believe this dream?
Now i can find relief
I grieve